The soul. Elusive yet obvious. Like the wind, you don’t see it, but you see the effects of it, and that’s how you know it’s there. I can tell when my soul needs some renewing, a bit of polishing. Some loving attention so that my mind and body all work in harmony with it and I feel centered, balanced, whole.
When I miss my Mommy Time-Out, I feel my soul getting a little dull, yearning for attention from me. So I take my Time-Out and do something to get back in touch with me, with my soul. Some things are a means to an end, like exercising, writing, going to a movie. And some things I do are more direct. Sometimes my Mommy Time-Out is a time when I can just be still and listen – to the noises around me, the people I come in contact with, my inner voice. I am brought back into the present moment. I stop thinking (or caring) about what I have to do tomorrow, or what I wish I had or had not done last week.
When I come back to my family after a MTO like that, I see my daughters differently. I see them as the five and three year olds that they are, and not the self-sufficient young adults I sometimes wish they were when things get hectic. And I can then enjoy their childhood, that fleeting time of their lives I will never get back. And when I sit and enjoy their childishness, and soak it in, literally, my soul is fed, all over again. It’s the gift that keeps on giving. And I am redefined.
Do you ever feel like your soul could use some renewing? How do you do it? How are you afterwards?